Category Archives: health

Writing for Reals

Tonight I did the first extemporaneous fiction writing I’ve done in months. It came out of a chance phrase from a friend during dinner (thanks, T!), and has grown to about 700 words in about 20 minutes. 🙂 I am very happy with this turn of events!

My goals for this, the second round of A Round of Words in 80 Days for 2012, are as follows:

1. Continue with my 5 minutes of writing every day, but bump up to 10 minutes a day. This will most likely happen first thing in the morning, while my schedule remains what it is. It mostly turns into journaling, but that’s completely okay with me.

2. Walk Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays, with yoga on Tuesdays and Thursdays.

I know the second isn’t a writing goal, but it IS a healthy life goal. Since part of my life realizations in the past couple of weeks have including making time for myself, and not giving myelf to everyone else, I believe this will allow me to start balancing things in a healthy way, beginning with treating my body in a good way.

I also think it’s likely there will be more writing on Tuesdays and Thursdays after the yoga sessions. Yoga clear my mind so very well, and allows me to focus on my body and my breathing in a way I don’t do at any other time.

In the meantime, this weekend is Emerald City Comic Con in Seattle. I’m going to be there all day, every day. There are even a couple of very interesting panels that I want to sit in on…as well as Saturday night’s speed dating session. I’ll have to post here with how that goes… 🙂

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writing? not so much…

It’s been a busy month. I put one of my cats to sleep on my birthday (worst birthday ever, including the one when I had pneumonia), and shortly afterward got sick with what has turned out to be gallbladder attacks. Testing continues; surgery is likely, but not on an emergency basis. Turns out gallbladder attacks are manageable if you don’t eat much fat or protein… I’ve lost at least a pant size in the past 2 weeks. Not complaining about THAT, of course; hell of a way to lose weight, though.

It’s pretty easy to forget things like 5 minutes of writing per day. And brushing my teeth before I fall asleep. And taking the dry clothes out of the dryer. It’s a lot harder to forget things to do with my remaining cat; she’s loud and persistent at all times, but unless it’s dinner time, or her box is a mess, the only thing she really wants is attention.

So I haven’t written anything in quite a while, and I’m beginning to feel the lack of it in my life. I’m going to, starting Thursday morning, get back into my routines: specific bedtime with lights off, and specific wake-up time. Two seemingly small things, but both engineered to make my life better.

The third thing is my 5 minutes of writing. I need it like I need good sleep and healthy food. Will report on my progress on Sunday. 🙂

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five-day headache

Just when I think it’s not going to happen today, it happens. It’s not a headache that makes me want to scream and claw my eyes out or anything; it’s just kind of dull and there, mainly on the left side. My mom told me to call the doc if it keeps happening, and I believe I’ll be calling the doc tomorrow morning.

On the writing front, for ROW80: my goals were up and down this time, everything from writing 5 minutes a day to doing NaNoWriMo in November, and a few places in between. Nothing has stuck this time around. It took hearing of Anne McCaffrey‘s death to get me writing again this fall, and I’ve written about 5K words in the past few weeks. I don’t think they’re brilliant, and who knows if they’ll go anywhere, but the point is that I’m writing again.

I think that I may not write tonight, however; though I’ve taken the bulbs out of the light above my head and turned down the brightness and contrast on my three computer monitors, my headache is slowly increasing. Definitely time to call the doc tomorrow.  *sigh*

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with a little help from auntie b…

…I’m taking control of my life. 🙂

I’ve spent a lot of time moaning about how things in my life suck, especially over the past few months. In the past year, I’ve gone from working 10am-7pm, Monday through Friday, to working 4pm-12:30am Tuesday through Friday, and 1:30pm-10pm Saturdays. There were reasons–jobs reshuffling within the company, people leaving for new opportunities, volunteering to change my shift, and then being asked to change it again, and being told I’m working Saturdays because it was my turn “to take one for the team, because seniority doesn’t matter here.” I’ve had discussions with my direct supervisor regarding changing off of the swing shift, and was told yesterday that it’s not going to happen until AT LEAST the end of January, more like sometime February.

The whining has involved many of the following “issues”: not getting enough sleep, getting up too early, going to bed too late, not getting to write, not getting to study for my doula work, not getting to spend time with my friends, and just not having enough time to spend with myself.

This afternoon before work, I had a brainstorming session with a friend, who calls herself my Auntie B–which is absurd, since she’s less than 4 years older than me. 🙂 But she has a lot of life experience, and a very direct (yet caring) way of telling people what they need to hear about themselves. As I am generally pretty good at accepting these things when I hear them, she really helps me out a lot. We sat down, made a list of things I need to do, plus things I want to do, and then started picking days for these things, and general times for some of them.

We first gave me a going to be/getting up schedule. This is one of the things I am the worst at. I love going to bed late, sleeping late, hitting the snooze button, and making excuses to stay in bed with my cats. However, even though I love these things, most of them are the worst things I can do for myself in terms of getting enough sleep and having a consistent “daytime” for myself. It’s always one of those things I “should” have better control over. Well, starting tonight, I DO have control. And I’m accountable to Auntie B for going with the plan, or discussing changes to the plan.

Mondays, which are one of my two “weekend” days, is now reserved for weekly food planning, grocery shopping, cooking food, and non-cooked food prep for the week. This means less money on eating out, and cooking healthier food than I been eating whenever I eat out, which tends to be about once per week.

Tuesdays and Wednesdays I’m training to be a barista for when my friend has a baby in February and needs assistance.

Thursdays is doula study day.

Friday is lunch day: plan lunch with a friend/friends I want to keep in touch with and can’t hang out with because of when I work.

You get the idea.

As it turns out, I just needed a manager to help me figure out what the hell I’m doing with my time. 🙂 Together with figuring out my budget (which I’m doing mainly on my own with a piece of software called YNAB (stands for You Need A Budget), this plan will help me finally put my life in order.

Mostly. 😉

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much better

I had my massage this morning (thanks again, Melinda!!) and then had a nice, long, hot shower. I haven’t felt terribly awake since then, but my back feels better, and my wrists and hands…well, they’re probably going to take some more effort on my part.

Now it’s work…though there’s not a lot to work on. Thank goodness for iTunes and downloadable movies! At the moment, I’ve picked “The Mummy“–the first one. The best of the three, definitely. The fact that I’m watching it for the second time this week tells you something about how busy I’m NOT at work right now. 😛

I’ve discovered a budgeting software called YNAB–which stands for “You Need A Budget“. 🙂 I’m working on the free 7-day trial right now, while watching “The Mummy” and pretending to work. I don’t know if I’m going to buy the software, but it LOOKS like a good investment right now…

And now I just want to go home. 😛 Perhaps it’s time to come down with a headache? 😉

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ouch…

I finished scraping industrial strength carpet glue off of a concrete floor yesterday afternoon. I didn’t do nearly the whole thing, but I did a bunch. Yesterday’s patch, on top of moving everything I owned last week (plus scraping a little last week and scraping a bunch the week before), was sizeable.

My point? My wrists ache, my hands hurt when I try to grip anything, and my fingers go numb at the drop of a hat. Not good. Typing without my wrist braces is slower than WITH my wrist braces, which is something to see. If you want to be bored, and don’t mind falling asleep.

“What are you still doing typing then?” you might well ask.

“Working.”

Tomorrow morning–that’s Wednesday–I have a massage with my favorite masseuse in the world. I think we’re going for upper body and arms–she just doesn’t know it yet.

I also resolved early this morning that I wouldn’t be eating any more candy, ice cream, or chocolate. I did end up having some candy–partially because my blood sugar totally crashed around 6pm, which was my own fault–and half of a couple of cookies, both of which had chocolate in them. They sure were delish, though…

So Wednesday will improve on today, which was an improvement on yesterday. I do what I can do, and learn from all of it.

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sh*t

Another friend has breast cancer. She is younger than me by several years, and otherwise completely healthy.

I’m calling my doc for a mammogram appointment on Tuesday. I’ve had two previously, both since my mom was diagnosed, but it’s been over a year since the last one. And now I’m scared again.

I’m also starting to really think about going on an all-organic diet–like completely. Low salt, low fat, low sugar, completely natural and organic. I don’t know what good it will do, but I honestly don’t think it’ll hurt. I’m getting those cookbooks out on Sunday, making a menu for the week, and doing it. I’m sick of feeling badly after I eat, and sick of “trying” to lose weight and just not making it happen.

It’s happening. It’s for my mom, my friends S, L, and now M. But it’s really for me.

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